What if..

 If mental disorders had physical signs, on the body's ,Like a scar perhaps. 
They'd reveal that a person is  really terribly  unwell' 
When you look at her, you wouldn't tell she's wrestling with wild thoughts, 
a sense of immense emptiness and a mind that refuses to calm down.. 

 

No, especially not when she has some makeup on her face, 
somehow it helps her conceal she's miserable
 She'll look happy, inadequate to be called happiness. like it once did. 
 Engulfed in emptiness ,nothingness and meaninglessness. 
waking up everyday to die.

 

Mental health conditions are  bondage, slavery ,
 Running a marathon inside her head.
The world ,middle of an ocean full of dangerous sea creatures..Alert mode on held prisoner by her own mind.

 

Always pondering on dark imaginings ,
Those who passed away by suicide
How did they maneuver some things,
 How to fasten rope properly, most lethal poison.
 Did they consider the possibility of its backfiring.  Its a misdemeanor to commit suicide..
So  failing to successfully murder yourself to get arrested for it. ..
Is out of the frying pan Into the fire double tragedy but quite preposterous


Sharing details of her mind's preoccupations to friends and family 
Imagines them jeering thinking theyre  exaggerations 
.If they did care, wouldn't they  know to support. 
Constantly resenting ,but they probably are clueless on how best to help. 
Nonetheless she withdraws , disengages and  isolates  to cease feeling  like a burden. For everything to stop.

 

Wishing they  are right, she's exaggerating
She'd snap out of it and connect socially, live free ,get a life
But instead she heeds to the devils  seduction 
intrusive thoughts ,right into the dark tunnel of what ifs?
With those thoughts, she recoils back into her shell.

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